She Broke Up with Me

Have you ever been broken up with? It sucks..but what about when it's by a friend..not a boyfriend. Isn't that worse? I mean it may not be as formal but you know when you're being dumped. I confess I've done it...in my pride I've had friends who I felt were hurting my feelings too many times and I just severed our ties. So why would I be upset when I'm the dumpee?


I had this friend name Cindi and we met pretty soon after I moved to LA. She was Christian and so was I...respectively...ha ha. We prayed together..we partied together..we drank together...and somewhere in those years we both found that God had a better way to do things and we straightened up our acts. We probably stayed friends because we had too much dirt on the other one to want to be enemies! Well one day after many dates and dramas Cindi went and did the unthinkable. She fell in love with a wonderful guy and got married. How dare she? Then she kinda dumped. Me since I would not be able to relate to her woes now of picking out curtains for her new home or all that sex she would be having. I guess she thought we didn't have much to talk about it. Funny thing..we used to double date with her fiancee and me and my ex and then the night he broke up with me she got engaged. No I didn't go to the party!

So I was "bitter party of one" and we remained cordial. I cried at the wedding and life went on. We were both in the same crazy business of Hollywood and I have to admit we did spur eachother on with a healthy sense of competition. I don't think it was ever concious competition but it existed for sure. I made a promise to myself never to be "that girl" the one who couples up and forgets her friends. I actually kept it. I always valued my girlfriends and they've gotten me through more break ups than I care to admit.

Fast forward a few years....we went out seperate ways professionally but stayed in touch a bit. I got married. I thought we'd have lots to talk about now . And I sent several emails and maybe made a call or two. None were returned. Go figure. I got over it...or so I thought.

I've been very blessed in my ministry and career and now have a very full life with more girlfriends who love and pray for me than I can ever ask for. But I heard that I'll be seeing her tonight. My friend is bringing Cindi to one of my comedy shows. It's literally been years and the first thought was "Wow...Cindi's coming? She broke up with me!" Then I turn into an 8th grader wanting to look really good...be really talented and win this competition in my twisted little mind with Cindi that I've risen above our friendship and I'm doing just fine and she should be jealous of me! Yes I said it..I can feel you judging me through the computer...but don't lie..you've done it to! Ok maybe not but I'm crazy..we know this!

Then I took a step back and remembered the same message I'm running around the country preaching. Stop trying to fit in..it's not about being loved and popular. When did Jesus win Ms. Congeniality? He was despised and rejected. For whatever reason he was disliked by many. And I'm suppossed to be looking to HIm for my validation not people. So I'm working on it...praying for a good night. Who knows what will happen? But I think I'll still wear my skinny jeans! And make my husband wear a ''good shirt"! So Sue me!

Jewish Love meets Korean Love

Picture it....I'm in NYC city it's a hot summer night romance is in the air. My husband and I are standing at a charming little pizza joint in the upper west side and two minutes later we're face to face with none other than my ex Jewish love Joshua Cohen( see book for that story) and his new wife who is by the way expecting...TWINS! Can you say surreal life? Here's the kicker..it really wasn't that weird. I had to get over how pretty she was and the fact that she literally seemed skinnier than me even though she's 6 months pregnant. I know that sounds weird but besides the belly she's definitely thinner.
Now Ron and I were in town for a show at the Lamb's Theater Off Broadway and we left that day around 12:30 pm thinking we'd spend a nice day in the city sight seeing. Well it 's New York in the summer and we were sweating before we even got out of the cab...and you know how I feel about sweating in general. We couldn't go home so by about 5:00pm we were so haggard we really started to look homeless. By about 8:00pm we had given up completely and when we united with Josh and his lovely glowing skinny pregnant wife Jill...we knew we'd have to "woo" them with our personality.
I have to wonder if it was awkward at all for our spouses to be in this position. But then again Ron had read my book..he had to be tough by now. I only had 68 chapters of "ex boyfriends". Josh said that Jill thought my book chapters on him were hilarious and she was looking forward to meeting me.
I never pictured Josh and I marrying other people then all having dinner together.I spent so much time a few years ago trying to convert him to "my team" I kept saying" Try the food on our side..ham tastes good!" But in the end alls well that ends well he married a nice Jewish girl and our mothers were both thrilled.
So immediately and I mean immediately we all started talking at once...making jokes..telling stories and long story short the next thing ya know it's 1:20 am in the morning and we were all at baskin robbins having ice cream. It was a sincerely surreal..fun..crazy...night. I'm beyond happy for Jill and Josh and it goes to show you ....ex's dont have to enemies and I'm glad I married the "right guy for me". Ron's the best.

Home in Ga

It's 1:30 am...we're home at "Tara 2" my parents Ga home...Ron is passed out from all the outlet mall shopping and bag holding. It was crazy..mom got that look in her eye at 8:45 pm when she was told if she opened a store credit card today she could get an extra 40% off...it was a mad dash for both of us but we finished strong with several bags to show for it!

I wanted to write...funny..I am suppossed to be writing my article for Radiant mag but I couldn't figure out what to write about. So I'm passing the time playing with my other best friend my internet...aol emails..myspace...you get the picture. I have an addiction. I 'm also suppossed to be working out right now .But I had some m&m's put on the sweat pants and that's as far as I've gotten so far.
I hope to get something called "rest" while I'm here. I 'm told I'm overworked and I need to take a step back...well I'm sure all the fried chicken and southern food will help. In the south "ambrosia and mac and cheese" are considered veggies. I love this place.

A lot is going on..I'm working on my second book...wondering in one whole book based on my relationship with only one man could possibly be as interesting as the first book based on my relalationships with about 50 men? Who knows? We'll see?

Gospel Music Press Room Video

As you can see in the clip I was doing my America's Top Model audition for the press... hmm... still no calls! But it was really fun to go and goof off after the show. Most of the acts they were talking to were very serious so I decided to ham it up a bit and we think it went pretty well. I'm hoping Amazing Race or Survivor will now want me! LOL

I think I might last 5 mins on either of those shows... by the way did you watch Amazing Race last night? I'm soooooooooo rooting for the hippies!

I'm in AZ suppossed to be resting

Here is the deal..hubby and I were lucky enough to get a few days off and come to this amazing place in AZ Prescott being hosted by Jay and Linda who run this FREE bed and breakfast for ministry people and we must have convinced them we qualify.We've been fed these incredible breakfasts every morning for 3 days and then we sleep and eat and pray and go for drives..it's been wonderful. Then Ron got out the computer and my wheel started spinning..it's like my addiction came right back.Well Ron left today to go work on his TV pilot..praise God for work and I'm here with his computer..I could be doing so many things but here I am with my other lover the computer..blogging..emailing..whatever..it feeds me...is that so wrong?

GMA's Are Over and I Made It!!!

Ok seriously I was stress binging and eating for 10 days and I thought I might not make it into my shiny SLIM silver leather pants but I did. I wore the 3 inch heels and didn't trip. I did have to bend over on stage in the pants and Praise God they didn't rip.The hosting could not have gone better..well maybe if I was Kirk Franklin but besides that I was happy. I was really having fun at some points when I looked out and saw Amy Grand and Vince Gill and Stephen CurtisChapman in the front row it was sooooooooooo cool.
I met some nice guy back stage and he's like" you were good" I said "thanks..what's your name? "He said Mark" I said"Well are you like a singer person Mark?" He's like yeah..in a band..called Casting Crowns.."I'm like..oh that's fun for you!" DUH I think he's the lead singer..he just giggled. I told him later sorry for not being up on my music info..he laughed.
Anyway..overall it was a great night..I went and did the press room and got to WOW them with my Tyra Banks Audition for America's Top Model poses I've spent my whole life working on. I love doing those press things..it was AWESOME. We got free food...then my mom and dad were there too and we had a blast. Today we worshiped God at the outlet Mall..it was great too.Then we all went to a "meat and 3" place if you don't know that southern term it means Meat and 3 sides..we ate lots of heartburn on a platter. It's good to bottom out in Nashville before getting back on the diet wagon in good old tofu country CALI

I'm In Nashville at GMA Awards Hosting

This is nuts...what is they find out I don't know the difference between Kirk Cameron and Kirk Franklin?
Im really more of an Amy Grant Unguarded girl..but here I am in Nash with all the fancy music people and I'm hosting two hours of the pre show tomorrow and up looking everyone up on the internet so I know what I'm talking about.

It's really and honor to do this but I'm scared ...whew...well Mom is here because she wants to meet the stars..hubby is here to stand back stage and feed me funny lines....publicist Rhonda to make sure everyone thinks I'm fancy too..the whole crew..yikes ..we'll see how it goes.We visitedthis amazing AIDS exhibit for World Vision tonight and it was so much of a tear jeaker. We heard stories of all these children with the disease and others that need help..that are dying of hunger it's heart breaking and in the midst of all this glitz and glam for the awards..I'm glad this organization is here. I hope to do some work with them. It even got me thinking I should go to Africa..I KNOW it's Hot there but I want to help them so bad and the typical American thing to do it just write a check right? Well maybe I can do more than that?I don't know ..it was just really moving... I pray people check them out they are doing amazing work all over the world.


Ok I need to get my bling blind outfit ready for tomorrow..my wonderful agent Jay told me to rub prep H all over my body to appear skinnier..he says everyone does it...HA I think it's something he learned in his frat days...but I'm not trying it!
I just hope the silver leather pants can still seem holy when I'm in them and they are REALLYtight!!!
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